So a couple weeks ago I almost quit my job… I was contemplating quitting and starting fresh in a new career. And by fresh I mean minimum wage, zero knowledge, opposite skills required, fresh… I had it with what I was doing and felt like I dreaded going to work every morning. All I wanted to do was sleep in a little and have more time in the day to write and work on my passions.
At work I had been feeling very “replaceable”, like I was just another sucker working for the government and if I quit, they’d find somebody to replace me in a second. I had a moment during a hard day at work where I thought what if I just quit it all and did what I really wanted to do? This is a very big and loaded question with a lot of factors involved. But I started looking into what I had to do.
I initially talked to my boyfriend because obviously this would affect him. He was so supportive and said do whatever makes you happy. I talked to a few friends who reminded me that yes I can literally do anything that I wanted to do and they would be there to cheer me on!
I applied to a gym to be a personal trainer and literally got an interview the next day. I talked to my boss about possibilities such as working casual on the side or taking a leave of absence. She was also amazing and supportive and looked into options for me. I had everything set up and the opportunity was totally there. I even had cheerleaders to boot! Then I thought… and thought… and thought… until I felt like I was going absolutely nuts.
I weighed the effect of this decision over and over until my brain hurt. I played out scenarios in my head I visualized what my other job would look like and if it seemed as if it was something I would totally enjoy. I had the idea that as long as I was going to 100% LOVE personal training and work hard at it that I could TOTALLY do it and be great at it. And I know I wasn’t wrong…
The truth of the matter is that there was no way for me to know if I would 100% love it and if I was going to succeed in this “sales” type industry. Truthfully I had never considered personal training a “sales” job either, until during my phone interview when the interviewer said, it was just that. And what I would have been selling would be some big corporation gym. This would include going against what I truly believe. Because I believe health and fitness should be for EVERYONE and can be done anywhere at anytime. Regardless if you can afford a gym membership or not…
Why would I try to convince people to drive through the city in traffic to get to a gym potentially out of the way to spend money on a membership when it could potentially not be sustainable for them? And more importantly, when I wouldn’t even do that.
I have been building my own brand for a while now and gathering information. I decided it was time for me to really start putting what I have to offer out there more. It wasn’t until I sought out some guidance from my AMAZING and empowering sister that I realized all I really needed was exactly what I am doing. But finding the time to continue a career I am freaking amazing at while working on my passions on the side.
What I really needed was to shake up my life like this. I needed to scare myself into some motivation to continue to work on my brand and work towards what I have been working on for so long. This very website/blog.
It’s the start of something I will hopefully work on and cherish forever. And as for my work life… I began to realize if I continue to practice gratitude to actually having a full time job that most people would cherish dearly then I could carry on like I always do when work gets tough. Despite feeling a little unappreciated I will continue to do my best and focus on only the things that I can control. I know deep down in my heart of hearts I am amazing at what I do.
Yes they may be able to find another full time nurse to do my job and the world would move on, but I am realizing now I am not done getting every little bit of life experience and knowledge out of this job. Also I would miss the little moments of TRUE appreciation from patients and families that I get that make me realize I may not be making a big difference to the government but I am making a HUGE impact to the people that are in my care.
Sometimes we find motivation in the oddest places and in my case it came from analyzing my worth and my life’s path. Once I started to ask myself some tough questions I’ll admit I became hopeful but also fearful of so many things. Fear of going broke, fear of losing a great job that I had once been so damn grateful for, fear of risking it all to end up hating what I do. I KNOW I can do and be anything I want to be but I’m glad I looked for support and advice and I’m glad I trusted my instincts and found that gratitude again.
I feel like this was the ultimate shake up. And it’s not the first time I’ve stumbled upon a hidden message from the universe. It was a great shake up to my “way too” comfortable and predictable routine and life. I feel there are so many things I can improve on in my life right now and so many goals I need to work towards. Only through this experience I have realized this and will continue to grow. It’s funny what kind of teacher life becomes at times.
So I’m keeping my dang job but I’m putting in the hours outside of what I do to become something greater than what I am now. This is how we grow and learn and I’m glad I didn’t learn the ultimate hard way.
This shake up has literally brought tears of gratitude to my eyes. Gratitude towards my job again. Gratitude to all the amazing and super supportive people in my life especially my boss, my boyfriend, my friends, and my sister. Not many people can say they have the utmost support even when making potentially a very irrational decision. I am grateful for having options and knowing I’m not stuck. I know there are endless possibilities to my life and my gut instincts will lead me in the right path as long as I stay true to me.
I’m sure I am not the only one who has learned a lesson this way and potentially a very hard way. Don’t worry, it’s just a life lesson. Learn from it and keep following your heart. When making a hard decision make sure to stay true to yourself. And give it your all in whatever you’re doing. When you’re looking forward realize the future has endless possibilities.